Well, in school and everything I used to do, I always pushed myself way harder than I needed to do be the best at what it was compared to other people at my "level." Awful, right? I was basically trying to be the most superior. However, I think all the other kids were as well. And now I'm admitting this problem. It's wrong for me to want to "be the best." I'm thinking about what I want to be now, and I'm even considering not going to a prestigious University, but one that's easier and more laid back. I also want to work at a slower pace. However, I see everyone else my age either is very lazy and laid-back or an overachiever who considers themselves very superior to others. I don't want to be part of any of that.

Do I seem to have a problem? I mean, am I just allowing myself to become more lazy? Do other people my age have a problem, or am I reading them wrong from all the times I was bullied by my peers in the past?