Drunksunflower,

Oh I see. It sounds like you were/are close to your father. Was he always very involved with you growing up? A father can make such a tremendous difference in the life of his daughter.

Maybe your are feeling some disillusionment about all you have gained. Now that you have "arrived" -- maybe it is not giving you all the satisfaction that you thought it would. I think there are a lot of good reasons to take anti-depressants -- energy is definitely one of them. When you're depressed you can't see things clearly, and depression can tell you lots of lies.

Keep posting.

Hugs,

EJ