I understand what you are saying. My mom always treats me like the most horrible daughter in the world. Even though, I came home from college to take care of her when my sister lives literally 1 minute down the road and doesn't have a job. My sister hardly ever visits, but when I need a break, I am the bad person. Depression coupled with a parent who treats you like you aren't good enough is a hard. But we just have to keep telling ourselves, we are good enough!