Hi 8green48!

I don't suffer with a panic disorder, but I do have anxiety issues from time to time and a little PTSD mixed in for good measure.

I consider praying to be a conversation with God (or A God). As in many conversations, they sometimes get side-tracked or go off in another direction at times, no? I think the same thing can and does happen when we have our conversations with God.

I believe that he wants to know what we are thinking of, how we are feeling, what we have done or not done today, all that kind of stuff along with our usual prayers that we may have a ritual in saying.

I believe that God is very happy to hear from you for a minute, for a half hour, for any length of time each and every single day. It's your connection time with him and him with you.

My prayers or conversations often get side-tracked as something I'm praying about reminds me of something else so off I go on that subject. Sometimes I'm triggered by something I'm praying about and I can't go on with it or I become fearful from the trigger and my anxiety will kick in.

Sometimes when I pray, I end up falling asleep before I even finish saying what I want to say to God. Those are the times when I feel we are very close and he is giving me rest....exactly what he promises to give us.

Please don't worry that God isn't understanding what you are going through. He knows. He cares and he loves you exactly as you are. He knows your heart probably better than you do.

Wishing you well!