What prevents you from leaving?

One thing and old T helped me with was the recurring nightmares (for me of being chased and tortured etc in tunnels..) Anyway, she convinced me that everynight, as I lay down to sleep, to think of detailed weapons or whatever with which I could fight off or hide or escape the dream monster men and all that they did. She empowered me. I don't know if that would help, but you might try it for a while...and the ability to get to cache of extra weapons that I knew might be helpful...I think an animal to call, since normally are not judgmental, and the protection they might offer would help.