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Old Jun 01, 2014, 11:59 PM
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Originally Posted by wegian View Post
I used the word "rehearse" cause there was a time in my life, a time of high anxiety and paralyzing social phobia, when I did rehearse what I was going to say, when I saw a conversation on the horizon. So when the time came, I could depend on reciting my lines, while the better part of my mind was occupied with steadying myself. I was probably more than a bit of a bore, and it was Hell on any sense of spontaneity or true conversational exchange. But it got me though a tough period. That's in the past. But on occasion, I still make up and revise dialogue in my head, (playing both parts). It usually happens in anticipation of a somewhat fraught interaction.
I see. I'm sorry to hear that. I think conversation becomes paralyzing for me when I have to attend job interviews, which I find myself hoping never happens (which is illogical because I need a job). But I couldn't do that though. I can't time or "see" a conversation coming. I mean, sometimes I can, but I can't react fast enough. I can't rehearse right then and there. My mind goes blank on me. There is no thinking, there is no processing, there's no anything. Everything just shuts down and I'm doing the classic stare with my mouth gaped open as if I just witnessed some horrible event.