So... I'm going to residential treatment for my eating disorder. I'll be there in about two weeks. It's the first time that I'm going. And I'm absolutely petrified! I do not know what to expect except that I'm positive I'm going to freak out (and my anxiety is going to sky rocket) because I won't be able to do my ED behaviors. And to top it all off, I'm getting a full scholarship for my treatment (which I'm grateful for), so I feel a lot of pressure because there is a lot of people that have been waiting for this for me for awhile; so there's a lot of people I can disappoint if I relapse when I get out.

P.S. I am doing this for myself! I want to get better. I am tired of living with an ED. I guess I just wanted to rant..... Thanks for listening!