I see my Pdoc tomorrow. She has indicated that since I haven't responded to medications well, she wants me to try an alternative treatment. So tomorrow I will see if she puts in an authorization for rTMS, or ECT. I am worried tonight and will find it hard to sleep. I am feeling pretty depressed at the moment. And she will see that. I am so scared she will think that rTMS will not be that effective because I am Bipolar 1, and will insist I go through another course of ECT. I had it done back in 2004.

I am hoping for a good outcome, but fearing the worst.