I'm in love with someone and we can't be together because of complicated reasons...not because of we have families etc.

It's so painful...

I feel like...yes I'm going on because I have no choice, but I'm not going on with what is really "true".

But I've also come to realize that at this point it just isn't possible to sit and hope for miracles to happen.

I feel like everyone around me doesn't really "know" me because they don't know that the one person who I really love is nowhere near me and isn't in my life, but he's been the most important person and impacting person to me (other then my son) and there probably isn't an hour (if that) that goes by that I don't think of him. Sad .. huh.

I feel like I'm living a duel life, but I have no other choice...and I guess I've gotten really good at that.