During the winter I averaged between 5-1/2. to 7 hours of sleep. Over the last month, my average has slowly decreased to between 4 and 5 hours.

Should I be alarmed. I think I was better during the winter when I slept better. Lately I have been very anxious, irritable, depressed, easily irratable, highly bored, and very negative. Yesterday, I felt like I was just ready for anything to piss me off and push me over the edge. I know where that can get me, so.....

Does it sound like I'm in mixed mode or what? Honestly, this is all so new to me it is like a foreign language and has been so devastating.

I was the same person now as I was 3 years ago when I was fired from a job. At least then I was functioning enough to keep a job. I feel just like I did a year ago when I told my vocational rehab counselor, which kicked me out because of instability, this next statement. I'm just a terd floating in a toilet waiting to be flushed.

I've got a therapist appt. today for a 6 month evaluation. I'm trying to determine how to approach it to make it productive for once. I would change treatment facilities, but it's my only option.

Any advice will be greatly appreciated.