you say this like you living my life - i love my family - i wouldnt give it up for anything. but the man i love is married, we both are!!! its been 4yrs since i last saw him, i can still smell him, feel him, hear his laugh, see his smile, see the twinkle in his eyes, feel the love when he held me close. maybe i am inlove with a fantasy of him being with him. maybe i want to be with him because i cant really be with him (does this make sense). so true when you say there isnt and hour/min that goes by that you dont think of that person. he is the biggest part of me. i love the person i am when i speak to him, i love that i can talk freely without being judged.

The strangest thing is - we are miles and miles apart - but the other always knows what the other is feeling!!! without any contact! Weird - but the truth.

But I live for my sons, i love my hubby. I have mastered the art of smiling when i am dying inside.