Thank you.

RE: redundancy, we'll find out who's for the chop next week (ironically I had booked next week off as holiday... thinking of cancelling). Trying to not worry about it... but yeah, got a lot of debt and to lose my job... yeah concerned. Worried about how 'employable' I am in looking for something else - can't really brush mh under the carpet while I'm in a bad relapse... what with gp records and my own ability to concentrate.

Could be a blessing in disguise.. wife had gently spoken to me last week about going part time... she's worried that I'm wearing myself down too much with full time work and that is exasperating issues. Had been resolute in saying no... but (I don't believe in cosmic intervention) this could be the forcing factor that in turn helps.

As for my T... yeah perhaps. The above has pretty much refocused my attention quite dramatically (odd that ). Upset that I still haven't heard anything... but meh, not much I can do about it... won't send anymore texts or emails as that will look like whining and I can't be ****ed with that.

RE: weekend away... hard work lol. He is quite a quiet bloke so lots of lapses in conversation while I desperately reached for 'topic friendly' things to talk about. Was exhausted by the time I was on the way home yesterday.

We did go for a nice walk around Rutland Water... took some decent photo's.

My favourite... kinda like landscapes rather than people... see enough of those everyday, don't want photo's of em too hehe: