I am bisexual , very emotional and romantic person. Its been like one and half year I started chatting with a friend on the internet. I always had some feeling for him. As I am working abroad, haven't met him personally. But by nature I have come to know about his good personality and nature also. So the thing is we started talking on daily basis and kinda got addicted. We would talk daily, share stuff and joke around. We would miss each other when not around and express it as well. Since a month he is ignoring me. He is online as I can see (Stalking) all of his activities going on but he won't talk to me. I asked him straight out but he took it very light saying was busy, and not coming online type of things. It hurt me alot. I started complaining but he said he cant talk serious. Like always he wanted to talk about the normal stuff giving me impression like now he even doesn't care whether we talk or not. Also said to me that I was behaving like girls. (We are not open ) I am always thinking about him and missing him terribly. Now he is again off line not talking but doing all his activities normal. My efficiency at work has fallen very rapidly. I am checking on him all the time..waiting for his messages. But most of the time these days, its just the waiting..I am planning to go back my country on vacations but makes me feel scared that we may lose the beautiful relation that we have (or had may be ) if things donot work out. I know I must go but it will take like 2 months more. Right now I want advice and suggestion. What should I do.? I dont want to be clingy and annoying kind of person. I want to deal it wisely but cannot find a way. What to do? Is it real or its just me ? Please help.