I am sorry no one replied to you until now. Hopefully you are doing well.

Have you seen anyone about getting treated for OCD? I would definitely recommend doing that.

In the meantime, trying to find an answer to your question of 'am I guilty of xxxx' is really not productive. You will never be able to find a satisfying answer to that question. The more you try to be sure, the more your symptoms will flare up. I know you want nothing more than for people to reassure you that you are not a pedo, but that reassurance will not get you very far. Try to allow the question to remain unanswered.