Hi Johnny: No, I don't think you're weird. I don't know how old you are. I'm halfway through my 6th decade. So I'm REALLY old!

I think, as we age, we all tend to look back & see ways in which we could have made our lives better. I certainly do. (Actually as I read your post, I thought..."did I write this?" I could have... except for the part about getting into computers.) The great thing is that you're DOING something to change your life for the better NOW! If you disliked what you're doing & were just forcing yourself to do it because you thought you should, that wouldn't be good. But my sense is that you really like what you're doing. So... bravo! Keep up the good work!