For the past month or so, I've been slipping into a quite emotionless state. I really don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about my family, I have no friends to care about, I don't care if I don't eat, I don't care if anything were to happen right now. I try to at least pretend that I care around my family members, but it's getting really hard.
My brother just moved back home and my mom says that I need to help get him off of drugs and alcohol by keeping him busy, but I really don't care. The only thing I want to tell him to do is 'go away'.
This phase is getting much worse than it ever has before, and the only way I actually feel something is if I get hurt. I don't hurt myself intentionally. It's just something that I've noticed. When I accidentally step on a sharp object or hit my elbow on something, I actually feel something and I don't feel completely empty.
At this point, I really wouldn't care if everyone left my life for the next week or so. They could all just disappear and I just wouldn't care. I don't know if I just don't have the energy or what, but I just want everything that bothers me, even slightly, to disappear.