(((Nightworld1066))) I understand where you are at. I also think that it would be a good idea to print out your posts and let your counselors read them. It really says how you are feeling. I myself have found that if my counselors don't know the truth they can't truly help me. I have been fighting depression for a long time and that seems to work for me. My psychologist tells me that he has learned more about depression from me then any book or other patient that he has ever had. He has been a psychologist for about 40 years and he is very good. I have had many counselors over the years and I have been honest with all of them. These young counselor have to learn too. Depression is something they can not learn from a book. So in a way we are teaching them. Some students learn faster then others. I hope that you get to feeling better soon.