Yes, de-program. It is so difficult though, especially when still connected to the family in which the distortions were told or were swept under the rug because they seemed insurmountable. I often wish I'd have developed traits like extreme narcissism where I was driven by what others thought of me to "succeed" at all costs. Instead, I learned to hide from the scary outside world of scrutiny. I really don't know which is worse. So many around me are "succeeding" (good job, married w/family, own a home) despite being outwardly soulless and selfish. But maybe my way of coping appears just as outwardly soulless to others and leaves me just as miserable, but with no career compass to at least support myself comfortably. Shame...