Thank you so much for sharing - it all resonates. Small changes are probably the way to go - I think about them, look out the window and wish to do them but somehow don't. I get so low that I don't know if I want to choose to go on and then I get paralysed into doing nothing. It is a cycle and I know that I will probably bounce back. You know I think you're right - the OCD is the worst - debilitating, annoying, and shameful. I have decided to take medication now so maybe that might help. One thing at a time.......(poor elephant)
Thanks again