I had group tonight, which ended up not really being group as there were only two of us, and I get along very well with the second girl that was there. This allowed me to be much more honest than I usually am in group, and when T asked how I was doing I fessed up to drinking every day last week to be able to sleep.

Well the same old discussion came out: I need to move, and she feels like I'm not doing everything I can to move because somehow part of me still wants to stay at home. She also admitted to not understanding that part of me, but that we really have to work on it asap, that I can't go on like this.... She also wants me to try and get into a group home, but I don't see a point as according to the website I don't qualify, and even if I did, I'm so freaking scared I don't know how to do this!

I feel so stuck in my golden and don't know how to get out of this mess and lately I feel like T isn't helping me... I know she wants to, and tries really hard, but there's no easy way out...