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Originally Posted by eggplantlife
I keep making the wrong decisions!!!!! Hence my life being a mess. One of the doctors I had while back said his patient got better one day because one good thing lead to another and then she began to feel better. I keep making all the wrong decisions and my body seems to follow it. I'm so tired of this! I'm so tired of all the wrong decisions!
I was so angry for a while, but I decided that I can't stand being angry all the time so I went in search not to be angry. That helped me stop being angry especially to my mom before she passed away. But I think I might have turned the anger inside and cause depression to come back into my life. But I guess, I rather be depressed than be angry all the time. Angry caused me great pains, but depression is better than being angry all the time at every body. But I'm hurting myself!
I'm crying right now because I can't take this.
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Hello, I wanted to post in response to your share, firstly thank you for sharing this it must be a really sensitive issue. I can find similarities with this post mainly about making the wrong decision. Before i officially realised I was suffering with depression for a prolonged amount of time I thought i'd made excellent decisions and it seemed so. However stepping into the workplace as an intern during uni I began to realise that I was living solely on determination to break through this glass wall preventing me from getting things done. Even the manager asked have I got M.E and I became more aware of my presence although I couldnt change how I felt.
Recently my moods have swung from bad to worse, from not saying a thing all day and then lashing out on my parents and my sister, they think im crazy and are hurt by my actions.
I feel like there is no turning back and im just a horrible person because people have made me think i am- they choose to sweep my issues under the rug and let me suffer instead of denting their pride and understand.
Well, i thought i'd just share because i can relate, adios xxxFEM
