Hi hamstergirl. Listen there is nothing wrong in how you're feeling. You are scared of Richard the Creep. Is that unnatural? Certainly not. Most able-bodied women would be scared by somebody who practically stalked them all day, and to be frank they do have the power to run away if they wish and yet they're still scared. I would def be scared if I was in your position, I wouldn't like to leave the house and I would be nervous if I did. So hamstergirl this guy is just intimidating you, and that's horrible and disgusting. He's such a loser, and he certainly doesn't deserve you feeling guilty about what's happening. He deserves a good **** in the you-know-where and more besides.

>>I had a letter typed up with all the reasons why I shouldn't start a sexual relationship with him, none of which were "Father Lindsay and I think you may be dangerous." Like "after the trauma of being cathetharized month after month, I don't want a man touching me."<<

You had a letter typed up to give to Richard, to tell him why you don't want sexual relations with him? If I'm understanding that correctly. If I am, there's no need to give him any explanation of why you don't want a relationship with him. You don't want to get involved with him, and that's that, no explanations needed. If he asks why, tell him there's no reason why he should know.

>>So since I am flipping out at all this, there must be something wrong with me.<<
Of course there isn't. Anybody would be intimidated. Just stand up to him. he's a loser and doesn't deserve to be humoured.

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