I feel like nothing will ever be how it used to be. I have no energy to do anything and I've lost my appetite again. Nothing comforts me or makes me feel okay. I'm seeing a therapist soon and I hope they give me medicine for my depression and anxiety but I'm also scared of what it will do to me and I've also read a lot on here that many people take meds for years and when they stop taking them, their depression and anxiety comes back. I don't want to be on meds forever. I want my old life back, the life I used to know. I've always had depression and anxiety but it was never this bad and stubborn. It would go away and I had a lot of dreams and aspirations. A lot of motivation to keep trying. Now everything seems pointless. I want to cry but I'm unable to do that. The only time I get a break from feeling this is when I sleep. Life is miserable. Sometimes I just want my mom to hug me tight and sleep with me but I don't want to bother her anymore. She's been through a lot in life, she has too much stress and worries. She only had 3 children, my sisters and I and we all have some type of mental illness. We've been mentally ill for most of our short lives and she's had to put up with that. I feel like we are a disappointment. I don't want to cause anymore trouble and I'm an adult now not a child.


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