Yes I most definitely can see myself using the information to hurt myself in the future. It was probably bad that I found out what I did because now I know how many pills (of various kinds) that I would need to take in order to do harm. That knowledge I can't take back. I'm actually surprised I didn't find this out sooner... the fact that I haven't is what is bothering me. Why now?

I do have a T yes. We aren't really making much progress though, and are kind of in a slump if you will. I have a new pdoc who I am very hopeful about, and so I really hope that she can help me make some progress. Unfortunately she is only a "short-time" pdoc in that she stabilizes medication and then refers you back to your family GP. It's good because it will help with the one piece, but I really feel like I could benefit from seeing her for therapy too. Oh well ...

Thanks so much for your thoughtful response Abby. I went back and re-read it again.


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