Do any of you struggle with trusting yourself after a manic episode? Over the years I've experienced 3, and after my last one I have found myself struggling to move forward in my life. I have been able to get a couple of part-time jobs and I'm teaching yoga, but my issue is that I want to take the next step. I either want to go to grad school or travel or just do something big to move forward, and I have a difficult time trusting my intuition... it's hard to identify the difference between what's a feeling and what's my gut telling me. I find myself second guessing every idea, decision, and looking back with so much regret. I want to apologize to old friends who experienced my last manic episode, even though I know that apologizing won't change what they experienced. I guess I just feel stuck, because I am cautious to trust any of my new ideas, so I can't move forward. I'm stable, meds are helping and I'm okay, doing therapy, all that good stuff... I just want to be able to move forward. Thoughts?