Hi, Elisabeth256, and welcome to Psych Central! On some level I worry that all of a sudden I will become manic and lose control. But I am seeing a therapist and taking meds that currently have me stable.

I say go for your plans. Don't worry about mania. You might not have any for a good while. I haven't had any in years! Okay?

I suggest you talk to your therapist about these feelings and get support there, too, to help you move forward. And we will be with you, too.

And don't worry about doing a lot of apologizing to your friends unless you did something really bad to them. If they are your friends, then they know all that was just part of your illness, and you couldn't help it.