Lil,
You are not alone...........I am reaching out to you & offering my arms for comfort. I'll be here as much as I can for you, my friend.
As you prob know, a BMI of 16 is clear anorexia. When we don't get enough food, the amt of serotonin our brain receives is compromised. I wish I could knew how to tell you how to try to nourish yourself more, but I am struggling, too...........all I can offer is my understanding & my friendship & my presence in our journey together........( ** walking beside you **)
Btw, I totally hear you re: control, anxiety, dep.....tradeoffs..........
You CAN beat this.......are you seeing a therapist?
TTYS
Love,
Des