I am currently seeing my scool psychologist who I visited yesterday for the first time. It's not a long term solution since they can only provide about four sessions, but I might be redirected from there. After the visit I somehow felt calmer and the different pieces of my head at war with each other got a bit separated and I felt I could think more clearly. This didn't last very long however as until the night I was pretty messed up again when everything got mushed together again :/