Thank Wysteria, I really needed to read this!

Actually I'm not really mad at T, but at this whole situation, and yes I'm really frustrated because I feel so trapped and can't see a way out. I know T is pushing me because she truly believes there's a better future for me out there, I know she only wants to help me... but right now I feel like I just can't do my part of the work.

I will try though, I've got the afternoon off, and will use it to think about ways out, apply for a job offer I've seen on Saturday. I also plan on calling that group home just in case, but I'd rather wait until thursday, because I see T on Friday and don't want to be alone in this if I get a negative response.

Will answer more later, need to go to work now...