Thank you Des, i offer the same understanding to you always as well.
no, i'm not seeing a therapist. I know that i need to, know that i should but I can't see one for various reasons.

Actually no i wasn't aware that 16 was the BMI of clear anorexia, thank you for informing me though =]. now i feel somewhat better because i'm only at 16.9 right now. I've only just begun to get really "into" the old routine though.

*sigh* 'tis a long road down.
I thank you so much for your understanding..SO much.