I think you should work with your therapist with this but I say do it. Why would we let this disorder take everything from us.You have to go for your dreams, no matter what the challenge.

If we don't do what we want to do, the world could be missing out. I know so many professionals who live with BP. They have to be very diligent in managing their symptoms but do just fine.

Also, if your friends are truly that, they understand what's going on
If you truly have a need to apologize, do it for the right reasons.