I need support for tomorrow - session with T - after a dreadful one last week. I don't want to see her. I haven't text her all week. I think I am angry with her but I feel so confused about it/her/what I want to say. I am rambling. I don't know what I want - a connection/empathy? To feel that I matter? I know I am just a client and I desperately want something more but I have realised it isn't going to happen so maybe it is better to just move on? I feel awful. Why does this make me feel so bad?