Yes, they're terribly horrible!! And you're right. My thinking about it just makes it worse and worse. Plus I have no idea what time the appointment is or if dad will pick me up or I need to go to my parents' house. Just going over everything in my head. I'll need to find out today. Hopefully things will be okay. Maybe some magazines to read there or something. The thing is, I'm having a really hard time being alone right now. I do kind of okay while my husband is at work, but if he's late or has to go back out, the anxiety rises and rises til he's home. The longer the wait, the worse it gets, which is what happened at the hospital. I think I felt I was alone with my parents both asleep, and the longer it went on, the worse I got. That's what I'm worried about tomorrow, too. The longer I sit there, I'm going to start wondering what's taking so long, if everything's okay, did dad leave and forget me and go out a different door or something... My brain is everywhere right now when I'm alone. As you said, I'm going to have to try to distract myself from those thoughts. Oh, the appointment is for dad lol... Not me. I'll be there waiting for him while he's being seen by a doctor, and you know how long that can take... Mom usually goes; but she's just out of the hospital herself, and my sister will be with her. I actually would like to switch and be the one to stay with mom, but I'd never be able to tell them the reason and have them understand. I'm pretty alone in this as far as my entire family is concerned. We have no insurance, so I can't afford professional help.