I'm so so sorry you're going through this. I lost my 10 cats in a house fire in December. Out of all I lost in that, my cats are what I cry over and still find so unbelieveable that they're all gone that it still takes my breath away. I'm sorry you had to leave your dog behind. I know that has to be painful. Did you leave her behind to people you know who can maybe keep you updated on how she's doing?? She probably misses you, too. Grief is indeed hard and very tiring, and we don't know how long it'll last til it's over. I'm grieving, too; and would so love to just feel good again, but I know it's not going to happen til just the process is over. That's something my brain has to work with. Not something I myself can control - if you know what I mean. I hope things get better for you and will work out. Feel free to pm me if you ever wish to...