I definitely can relate. I did this a lot when I was in my crazy phases. More so in the first 10 months out 18 months of therapy. My therapist did not mind at all. She was willing to do therapy this way, and I am grateful. Sometimes, we did more than twenty back and fourths with me ranting and raving.

Once I was ranting that she was going to get rid of me as some posters wrote about their therapist, especially because of boundaries. She insisted there were no boundaries, and it pained her to hear about what was happening with people on PC. I was once terminated for calling a therapist a jerk, so I asked her if I called her a very bad word if she would kick me out of therapy, of course she said no. I could call her what ever I wanted, and she wasn't going to break, she would still be there for me. She understood my words were not about her, in fact not much that I said or did was about her personally. No countertransference there. I wrote in and email that she was a Son of a B, then on the next line I apologized. She did email back and let me know that no other client had called her that, but surely must have thought it. She was glad that I could actually say it, write it, but I definitely need not apologize for it. Sometimes, when I think of this I smile with a little bit of embarrassment. I have never used bad language until kiddo became a teen. It did help me to write foul poetry and rants to her regarding my parents. All this propelled me forward in my journey to heal.

One important thing she did say was that when she got these kinds of emails, even if she didn't respond, I was still alive and kicking, and to her that was a good thing. She responded to more than 2/3 of my 1600 plus emails.