I think everyone else has said some good thing about therapy. I cannot deny it, therapy has been liberating. But therapy will be difficult, especially in the first few rounds. Especially when your T touches on the things that you don't want T to talk about.

I was like you, at 17 years old I was down. Someone suggested I see the school's T. I was against the idea. I don't like the idea of someone trying to solve my problems. I rejected it many many many times before my teachers dragged me down to the person. Then, I decided to blindly trust the person.. that I am already here, so why not take a leap of faith? Wrong decision... ever. The school's T was a nightmare, I hated him. He would constantly judge me, ridicule me, and play around with what I believed in. He also told about my issues to my teacher, who then went around spreading about me in school. Thereafter, I decided I hated therapy and I would not want to believe in them again.

I decided to take my own leap of faith when I finally dragged myself to treatment. I actually did not open up at first.. letting my T do all the work. Therapy is a process that takes time, and as you get more used to it, you'll open up even more. My current T is someone I truly appreciate, and T is wonderful to work with.

I do get your idea of being against therapy. But sometimes.. maybe we should take a leap of faith and try it out. Sometimes, an outsider's view of things is beneficial too. Therapy is also a safe place where you can just vent within that confined space, and nothing should leave that place. To me personally, I find it reassuring that I have someone who would listen and not ridicule me; someone who cares. And I hope you'll find that person too.