I'm sat working on a project on mine, something that really requires thought, really gets me thinking about it. Makes me feel perhaps like I'm not wasting everything but I am, I so am. I've been discharged from hospital while even worse than this, so not an awful lot of hope that they'll be non-awful, I'll only go to hospital if I know I have medical need. Spoken to the crisis team which calmed me down a little.

I came up with the nick when I was playing pokemon of all things - I got the pokemon that I have as my avatar, and it looks like a cat, and it's an electric type, so I came up with the name for that and thought it'd be quite a neutral name to have on here.