I feel the same. Sometimes I'll go to bed with not so bad thoughts but every morning, as soon as I open my eyes. My first thought is "I'm awake, another day to suffer." I stay distracted during the day but nights, mornings and times when I'm alone with my thoughts are the worst. I'm having my first therapy session this thrusday and I hope I can get some medicine prescribed but I've read a lot on here that therapy and meds don't even work. I'm worried they won't work on me because I want to feel normal again so bad.

I can relate a lot to what you wrote. Good luck. I hope you find something that will help soon.

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