It's sad when you no longer have the energy to care...

To care about yourself ... to eat, to sleep, to try and stay afloat emotionally... I'm numb. I can't be happy. I can't be sad. I can't be anything ... I am nothing. I am unimportant. I am worthless.

It's sad because I know I'm hurting everyone around me and I just can't snap out of it for long enough. I'm so tired that I can't cry. I can't do anything. All I want to do is stay in bed and ... yeah.

I'm sorry to all my friends here, I'm not the same person I used to be. I used to be a better person ... now I'm not. I just am NOT doing what I want. I want to be able to help. I just feel so useless and helpless.

And T's gone for two weeks and then last session ever.

I think I want to go be self-centred and sulk now.

I'm sorry for being me.