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Originally Posted by Wic183
Hello - I'm new here, but happy to have found this forum.
I was diagnosed with BP2 4 years ago after a suicide attempt that landed me in hospital. At the time my psychiatrist prescribed me Prozac 20mg/day and Lamotrigine 200 mg/day. About 2 years ago I went down to 100 mg/day of Lamotrigine and have stayed at that level since.
I am considering coming off my medication although my psychiatrist told me he believed I might be on lamotrigine for the rest of my life.  However, I am finding that my creativity is hampered and I wonder if my meds are the reason. I haven't written for 2 years and my writing is very important to me...thoughts?
Of course, I'm very nervous about coming off - the depression and anxiety was severe and at times still can be (2 weeks ago I had to retreat to my closet, curl up on the floor in order to calm myself).
Has anyone had any kind of experiences with these drugs or combination of drugs? If so, what did you notice? Has anyone come off their meds successfully?
Thank you so much for your insights. Nice to find an online community! 
Wic |
I am not being judgmental here.
I think you need to find middle ground here with respect the the meds. Something like "there we're times that I wanted to die so I tried to commit suicide" and "but when on meds my creativity is hampered". I think the stance of getting completely off meds is rather extreme considering all of this.
Maybe a different combination of meds are in order? Or a supervised drug holiday?
I understand this is a personal decision for only you to make. No matter the result, I hope you make the right decision. Please keep in mind that BP is a lifelong illness. But there are some that find a way to manage without meds.
