I feel so stuck at the moment, the last three times I had to do those rating tests I scored 27/27. No change, just stuck at the worst it can be. I relate to the feeling more dead than alive, I have become more and more convinced that I am really dead and this is hell. I can't escape, it is for eternity, I desperately want to know why I ended up in hell but I guess it is part of the eternal punishment that I don't know, I'll never know.