(((Hugs))) You are talking about several different things and lumping them together and making yourself feel worse. to eat, sleep,... ok try and stay afloat emotionally, being numb (can't be happy, sad) ok then you take those things that you are sensing and making these erroneous conclusions: that you can't be anything you're nothing and worthless. Nope sorry. Depression tells us lies remember?

I believe you when you say you are struggling with energy to physically take care of yourself.
I believe you are feeling numb emotionally and perhaps that way you are coping.
But I won't take the summation of you being worthless etc. Because you are worthwhile... maybe right now you aren't able to do much or help or support or even feel for another... but that doesn't make you worthless, that just makes you really overwhelmed imo.

T going away and looking at ending therapy can't be depressing, I agree.

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I think I want to go be self-centred and sulk now.

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When I'm depressed it's often when I am focusing totally on me and what is going on with me and feeling like I have no control over it all. Once I "go numb" and allow what is going on to just happen, and try and focus on outside and other things, then the depression begins to lift some. Even when I don't feel like giving support to another, I try hard and one thing leads to another and another and before I know it I'm no longer going down the depressive spiral, but up.

Take some time for yourself, and then try to work on one thing that needs to be done and get it done if at all possible...it will help you.