Well said Sky...

(((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))) .. my friend, I wish so much that you wouldn't be so hard on yourself. I know that sometimes life can throw so much at you, and at times it seems like everything is unbearable ... everything is just one step too far ... just out of reach. But it is times like this that make us stronger ... it may not seem like it, or feel like it ... but once you get past this (and i know you will) you will be able to look back at yourself, and see how much you have grown because of your struggles. Just because you are stuggling right now doesn't mean that you are a bad person, or worthless ... and it also does not take away from the fact that you ARE a strong and beautiful person.

I've said it before and i'll say it again ... you were my first true friend on here ... you made me feel welcome, you made me feel like i was worth it, and that people accepted me here. It was YOU that made me want to stick around, and it was you that inspired me to want to help myself, and other people. And you know what ... just because things have been harder now .. it doesn't take away from ANY of that. And i know, i KNOW that you can get through this. You are so good at what you do .. you help people in so many ways, and i know that if i ever needed to talk that you would be there for me.

Take things slow ... make an attainable list of things that you want to have accomplished. Start off simple, make sure you eat properly, sleep enough .. you have to be able to take care of yourself before you can begin to try and help other people. I know it seems like you've been feeling like this for a while ... but there is no time frame for things like this. Theres no limit to how long its going to take for you to feel better, for you to feel like yourself again ... all you can do is take one thing at a time, one day at a time. Once you are able to take care of the biological matters, then you can focus more on the emotional aspect of things. And i think you will find that those will often come hand in hand. If you can take care of yourself physically, things will fall easier into place. I'm not saying its not going to take work, but i know that you can do it. I have so much faith in you Christina, you don't even know.

Please don't applogize for how you're feeling, or for what you wish you could be right now. We don't always necessarily have control over how we're feeling, but we do have control over what we can do to help ourselves. Please PLEASE feel free to contact me if you want to talk or just need someone to listen. I'm always at the other end of the computer, or phone, or WHATEVER if you ever want to talk to someone. Don't give up on yourself, just keep believing that you will be okay, and know that you have lots of people here who have faith in you.

Sending big hugs and good vibes your way ...
Jacq xo