Good question roads, for me I think it's a little bit of both. For the most part it does work for me. After giving it some thought, It's hard enough dealing with myself, I can't deal with peoples issues surrounding me. It takes every bit of energy for me to get through my day,I can't worry about how others are feeling about what I'm going through, tip toeing around, always looking at me, analyzing everything I do and say. I'd just rather concentrate on myself because that's truly were I need to be. Then there's the paranoid side that comes out. 10 hospitalizations, ECT, over medicated by doctors and nurses who really don't care and a lot of times don't have your best interest at heart. They sure haven't ever helped me. My biggest fear is that I would have to go through that again and I won't.

Does that answer or question or make any sense to you?