My depression has escalated to debilitation for the most part, which is jeopardizing my MFA. I'd share the details regarding how I got this low, but it's a very long story that's led to me, at 36, living in my parents' basement, too inept to work, bankrupt due to manic spending, in poverty with a dollar and change in my checking account, no savings, no portfolio, no 401k. My fatigue and apathy have led to losing my basic life skills: showering only once per two weeks, always failing to brush teeth, cooking & cleaning, etc.

I just don't know what to do. All my time is consumed by reaching out for help, but seeing that none really exists (a 5-year, fruitless search), in Indiana at least, and I'm hopeless.

And, yes, to the comment above about getting more therapy sessions. I'm seeking intensive, non-group, daily therapy, but nobody offers that in Indiana.

Thanks for reading and commenting.