I am wondering who I am, cant even figure out my own lies anymore LOL. When you can tell yourself you're going to do something, guess what isn't happening! I am suffering from major self absorption since discovering I am a narcissist, I mean I was self obsessed before but even more now all I can think about is who I am what I want.... why do I always wonder how something will benefit me, why do I twist all stories to make myself a badass, and I mean it goes on and on. I don't know if I can change? I found out my granpa was like my dad and even my great grandpa was the same..... maybe its genetic? I don't even know I cant tell the truth about caring about getting help. I cant identify the feeling to seek help Lol.