I'm sorry it has taken me so long ot reply. Thank you all for your replies. I really appreciate it. I would like to be more active here on PC. In Canada you do need a referral for a pdoc and I have had them sent out but it's just impossible to get in. I am on a waiting list for a mental health clinic that will take on new patients and give you a full mental evaluation but my Gp says it can take up to a year. I see a Naturopath on my own and she is like a therapist she is more of a life coach to me than a holistic doctor and she has told me she would never ever ask me to go off of my medication so she understands that my illness is not something a supplement can "cure" . My appointments with her are incredibly helpful but she too comes with a heft price per session so I can only see her every few months.

I am in the process of looking for another job and had some interviews last week. I will be hearing back this week if I was hired so fingers crossed. I have been tracking my moods with an 'emoods' app on my phone as well as a journal. I am also going to contact the Pdoc I was seeing in College and see if he has any connections in my current location.

Thanks for the support guys, I hope to get to know you all in our own time