Hello all!

I am writting down my experiences when being a bit hypomanic.

Well before I was on mood stabliizator I was really happy when I had "happy" moments, hyperactive ones, cus then I was able to do A LOT in a short time, before the "bad mood" (which was more often) strucked me again.

Now it's kinnda weird. I have this happy feelings quite often. Last week they were present for about 3 days, and yesterday also, was really annoying. Why?

Well sure, you feel like your on a top of the world, flying like a bird, careless and super happy. But together with that, I have no feelings towards people and things I usually loved. Like family, my BF, I somehow feel sorry for them, and think I am abowe all them. I mean HELLO??!

So, my experience, don't like the "soft" manic things. Cus I know it's not me. If someone would say your BD dumbed you when I am hypomanic or depressed, My reaction would be, oh....ok. So what? Getting the picture

So, I just want ME back. ME, ME, ME, with all her faults, want to feel my body, myself, my hapiness doing small things in life. I want to live. I hope, I am getting there slowly.

Thanks for reading my post! You all have a good day