((((((((((Bronee))))))))))))))))))
you are NOT a disgusting freak.....and i feel the same way
and last time i checked im not that much of a disgusting freak....
sweety your wonderful and i know your bf thinks so as well

start out slow...and let your bf know how your feeling..maybe start over? with baby steps?
believe me if he loves you he will understand
love, Inny