Sometimes it's really hard to find the right therapist. I had court appointed therapy after my parents got divorced to make sure that I was still stable, and at first, we just played games. I find that during the first few appointments, it's not really about the therapist helping you, but rather you getting to know the therapist and making sure they're a good fit. It's always harder to talk to people that you don't feel comfortable with. Yes, sometimes you have to suck it up, but once you find the right therapist, you will probably feel more comfortable.

One thing that I started to do last winter was write out what I was feeling when my depression got really bad. I ended up writing a document about all of the things that I have been through and all of the things that are happening to me. I did just a little bit of editing and decided that during the first few appointments, I would allow my new psychiatrist/psychologist to read through this document so that they understand where I'm coming from and I won't have to talk through all of it.

I hope you find the right therapist soon!